[He hears 'figure it out yourself' loud and clear and that's frustrating. And frightening. Opening himself to the Eye is exactly what Elias had needed him to do to power up for the ritual. He'd said he wasn't planning on it here, but what if he was lying?
The alternative is to let Lilith root around, and that's going to be hazardous to her health and sanity. At least this way... he'd only be sacrificing his own?
Maybe it won't be so bad? Opening his mind before had felt right. Freeing.]
Yes. It is.
[It's several hours later that Jon wakes in a heap on the floor of his office. He Knows. The images of the Not-Sasha aren't gone, but he can See where they're superimposed, and he can pry beneath them with effort to see the real Sasha James beneath them, a woman who looks nothing like her impostor, whose voice is completely different.
The Archivist records two Statements in a row and they're not enough. He needs more, something fresh. He forces himself to bar the door and record a third, instead. Elias is probably already aware, but it's a distraction from the clawing instinct to rise, to seek, to know the minds of those nearby.]
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The alternative is to let Lilith root around, and that's going to be hazardous to her health and sanity. At least this way... he'd only be sacrificing his own?
Maybe it won't be so bad? Opening his mind before had felt right. Freeing.]
Yes.
It is.
[It's several hours later that Jon wakes in a heap on the floor of his office. He Knows. The images of the Not-Sasha aren't gone, but he can See where they're superimposed, and he can pry beneath them with effort to see the real Sasha James beneath them, a woman who looks nothing like her impostor, whose voice is completely different.
The Archivist records two Statements in a row and they're not enough. He needs more, something fresh. He forces himself to bar the door and record a third, instead. Elias is probably already aware, but it's a distraction from the clawing instinct to rise, to seek, to know the minds of those nearby.]
It worked.
I'm hungry.